The Trashy PD Has To Survive as an Idol

Chapter 132

Chapter 132

Did you talk with Yoon Heeun-sunbae?

I momentarily lost my ability to speak.

I thought the time had come, but.

Unwittingly, to hide my trembling eyelashes, I raised my hand and rubbed between my eyebrows.

Kang Ichae?

No. He wasnt the type to block a conversation with Seong Jiwon and then bring it up behind his back.

It was more accurate to say Seong Jiwon had cleverly figured it out.

I lowered my gaze, shaking off the snow that had piled up on my head.

How did you find out?

At the year-end event, when you said you were headed to the restroom and Ichae went off to find you, it was a bit awkward when both of you returned together, wasnt it?

With a faint laugh

And recently, you seemed to be in a good mood after switching channels whenever Yoon Heeun-sunbae appeared.

he added.

Have you been happier recently?

Lifting my head at that question, I saw my reflection in Seong Jiwons eyes. I casually averted my gaze and stroked my chin.

Do you really want to know?

The silence felt prolonged.

Even on this cold day, I felt as if cold sweat was running down my back under Seong Jiwons piercing gaze.

Even though I had no intention of telling him, even if he said he wanted to know, I felt slightly pathetic to ask back.

Um, no. I trust you.

Seong Jiwon blinked several times then brushed the snow off the bench before sitting down.

Well, its not like its going to be bad for us anyway.

That.

Right?

Right.

In the grand scheme of things, it wasnt wrong.

I knew it wouldnt work on the members, but I still attempted to look harmless and benign as if I had put my soul into it.

Seong Jiwon just chuckled without saying much and looked up at the sky.

A little further away, the youngest members bickered as usual.

We got caught again this time.

I cant really hide anything from you.

Seong Jiwon turned his gaze to meet mine, paused for a moment, and then said,

Im sorry about last time.

If he was referring to last time, it must have been about the incident when he tried to answer a sasaengs call in the countryside.

Yeah, you almost did something crazy.

Ahaha.

I spoke seriously in a joking tone, and Seong Jiwon laughed out loud.

I could confidently say I knew what kind of person Seong Jiwon was.

Diligent, hardworking, ambitious, and sometimes soft.

Plus, the resolute aspect I had recently added to my knowledge about Seong Jiwon.

But to think he wanted to know something through a sasaeng?

Was he crazy?

That was more like something I would think.

Im looking for someone.

At that moment, Seong Jiwons words clearly registered in my ears.

I want to find them by any means because they helped me when I was having a hard time. It happened when I was a D.go trainee, so Ive been following them since then, wondering if they might know something.

Wait.

Not sure how he interpreted my reaction, Seong Jiwons voice gradually faded.

So, I was wondering whether to accept it or not. Sorry for making a big deal out of it.

Wait!!

Thinking about it now, I was stupid.

While Seong Jiwon hesitated as he looked for my reaction, I struggled to suppress my rising excitement.

Damn, a backdoor jackpot!

However, I had no recollection of helping Seong Jiwon.

Its a rather painful memory for me I didnt want to bring it up to you because its tough.

But considering the progression of scenarios so far, it had to be me.

Kim Seonghyeon? I helped him. Jeong Dajun too. No matter how I looked at it, it had to be me who had helped Seong Jiwon in the past.

Whether I did a forward roll or a backward roll, or even if I passed by on a KTX, my gut told me it was my story.

What? Was it this kind of story?

I couldnt grasp what Seong Jiwon was thinking with these recent events going on, but unexpectedly, the main scenario popped out.

When?

Right before I left my previous agency.

I asked cautiously, and Seong Jiwon clasped his hands as he spoke.

What was I doing then?

Honestly, I could not remember well.

It was more likely due to the systems trickery than my own problem.

Until the main scenario began, my memory was tightly sealed.

Only when a certain threshold was reached, a part of the memory would emerge like an old television filled with static noise.

That is, until the system window unlocked my memory, I couldnt know exactly what I had done.

I decided to make good use of this opportunity.

Seong Jiwon.

Hm?

Ill ask just three things.

I used to hate it when Min Jiheon said Koreans did things in threes. Turns out, he was right about Koreans and the rule of three.

Is it someone who works at a broadcasting station?

Oh, right.

Do they smoke?

Yeah! Right!!

Seong Jiwon looked at me as if he had seen a ghost.

I finally brought up the most important question.

Wasnt that guy a real piece of work?

Hoyun, thats not quite right. I owe a lot to that person. Lets watch our words.

I was fuming.

I was clear about it, so why draw a line with me?

Until just moments ago, Seong Jiwon had been nodding fervently, but upon hearing my question, his eyes quickly shifted as if to say, What nonsense are you spouting?

Now that I think about it, although the tone might have been a bit harsh, he only spoke the truth. And he really was an impressive person.

It dawned on me why I had been acting so out of character: having no patience yet waiting for Jiwon to speak, dealing with Yoon Heeun even when there was nothing in it for me.

Im screwed.

I cared about Jiwon.

Ding!

[????]

[Why?]

[Is it because you cant progress the scenario? Its okay, we have plenty of time ahead!]

Is it just Jiwon?

Ignoring the system window, which was spouting nonsense without catching on, I glanced over at the members faces.

I imagined how angry they would get if they told me to mind my own business and I confronted them about it.

Conclusion:

Id be pissed.

I had a feeling of being backstabbed since Jeong Dajuns double contract.

Though an uneasy feeling lingered, I was too busy making a living and didnt want to acknowledge it, so I just ignored that feeling.

But finally, after a year, I had to admit it.

Grrr

I cared about these bastards.

Not only did I look after my own meal ticket, but theirs as well.

And if anyone else tried to mess with them, it would piss me off not to retaliate.

I ended up creating one more weakness, damn it.

[Dont look so down!!]

From a caf across the street that was still open, the gentle melody of Black Calls carol flowed out.

White Christmas I want to remember forever

Everything in front of you, smiling happily

The white snow falling from the sky

Its not like that!! Ah, its so unfair?

Hey, wanna bet? Shall we bet?

Lets do it. But youre betting your game console, got it?

Yeah, lets do it.

Amid the music, I could hear the members arguing over something, their voices loud yet unclear.

Hoyun-hyung!! Come and tell us whos wrong!

I just looked up at the sky without responding.

When will I ever be able to live a carefree life? How much nicer do I have to be here before I get a gift?

[I really do want to give you something. But Seo Hoyun, you havent been living all that nicely]

Pick up on the hint, will you.

I just wanted to whine a bit.

White Christmas, you were happily laughing in front of me.

What should I do from now on?

I pondered slowly, one by one, about what kind of restrictions acknowledging this would bring upon me.

It wont make much of a difference.

Even if the number of dependents increased, it wouldnt hinder the progression of the scenario anyway.

Whether like this or that, my goal of becoming a first-class idol would not change.

A carol echoing in the distance

I want to remember all of this for a lifetime

Seo Hoyun, this guy would still use everything to achieve what he wanted.

Except for the members.

Okay.

Having sorted out my thoughts, I then gazed at the snowflakes pouring down generously before standing up and approaching the members.

Why, whats up?

Ah! Listen, Im so frustrated I could go crazy??

Our puppy seemed terribly aggrieved, barking away, but honestly, it went in one ear and out the other.

Maknae, Im the one whos more aggrieved.

A Black Call Christmas song that was breaking through the roof.

Seong Jiwon, who was about to do something crazy just to find me.

The main scenario, which hadnt shown any hint of progress.

From the beginning to the end, nothing went my way.

Right?

Do you guys fight over such things?

Its about pride.

Nevertheless, it was okay.

Seriously.

Of course, that was the most ridiculous part.

I muttered with my arms crossed,

I want to go back to my initial resolve, not stick with pride.

???

The members tilted their heads in unison, question marks floating above them.

Jeong Dajun.

Huh?

I grabbed the nape of Jeong Dajun, who was closest to me, pulled him close, and laid my chin on his shoulder while pretending to be upset.

Hoyunie is having a hard time these days.

A chill colder than the winter wind passed between us.

Jeong Dajun, whose waist was forcibly grabbed, couldnt escape and shivered with his arms.

Its tough for me too whenever hyung is like this!

Huhuhu.

Ah! Ah!! Really, why are you like this?!

Eventually, Jeong Dajun thrashed around, jumping up and down, and as soon as I let go, he quickly moved away.

Then, I chuckled.

The members grumbled non-stop, saying something was wrong, that it shouldnt have been revealed on the broadcast, and now it seemed my face wasnt covered with brass but with diamond.

Why, why did it turn into a mess? Was there something in the Christmas cake earlier?!

Ah, I feel like competing against hyung.

Being a leader is just so, so, so tough.

Why?

The members looked at me with worried eyes as if I were sick, but the real concern should be for themselves.

Guys, I was sorry.

Youre stuck with a madman.

Merry Merry White Christmas!

No, actually, I was not that sorry.

[1] See Episode 123