activa-t Chapter 333 Xiao Zhengze's Past
Chapter 333 Xiao Zhengze's Past
"Send it to the bridal chamber—"
At this time, Xiao Zhengze could no longer stand and fell completely on Lou Xiao.
Lou Xiao bent down and picked him up, then strode into his bedroom - a place that had been decorated with red and magnificent in a short period of time.
Xiao Zhengze put his arms around Lou Xiao's neck and leaned on her shoulders.
He could feel her body temperature through her clothes, full of vitality rushing towards him.
It gave some life to his dying life.
He thought of the first time he saw her.
The girl folded up her sleeves in the cold and damp weather and appeared in front of him, steaming hot.
She has always been like this, never afraid and always full of energy.
"You know...I've always envied you."
Even though Lou Xiao put him on the bed, Xiao Zhengze refused to let go.
"We are completely different... You have a lot of things... that I don't have."
For example, fearlessness, for example, courage.
He refused to let go, and Lou Xiao followed his lead, sitting with him on the bed sprinkled with longans, red dates, and peanuts.
"You have a lot of things that I don't have." Lou Xiao held his shoulder with one hand. The bones of his shoulder were protruding, and he was so thin that it was heartbreaking.
"Always coaxing me." Xiao Zhengze complained in a low voice, "Tell them all to go away, I want to have a secret conversation with you..."
Lou Xiao waved her hand when she heard this. The servants who followed her did not dare to move. They just knelt down and hoped that she would change her mind.
Xiao Zhengze got angry, and he yelled while struggling until veins popped out of his neck.
"Didn't you hear me telling you to get out?"
After he yelled, he felt his vision go dark, frowned, and lay on top of her, gasping for breath.
The servants hurriedly withdrew and went to report to His Majesty and seek His Majesty's arrangements.
Unexpectedly, the queen outside the door looked at the night sky and said, "Forget it, let's just follow his wishes."
The imperial physician has already told her that King Hanhai might not see the sun tomorrow.
His most beloved brother wanted to be alone with Xiao Xiao in his last days.
She felt uncomfortable, but if it was his wish, what would it matter if she let him do it?
She always felt guilty towards him.
Finally, there were only two people left, and Xiao Zhengze let himself go.
A dying person is no longer afraid of anything. Xiao Zhengze has a lot to say to Lou Xiao.
Until now, I don’t know where to start.
Where should I start? Yunwu Mountain? Or my own birth?
Lou Xiao doesn't know herself well enough. What should I say to make her remember me for a long time?
Xiao Zhengze thought about it for a while, and finally he was afraid that if he delayed any longer, he would lose the chance.
He said whatever he remembered, "I was born here, and dying here is also a perfect ending.
Have I ever told you about my mother, Xiaoxiao? Do you know what kind of person she is?
Senior sister and Achang’s mother?
"I heard that she comes from a scholarly family and is very talented in writing." Lou Xiao had also heard her master talk about her by accident.
I don’t know anything else.
Xiao Zhengze chuckled, "Yes, a family of scholars values rules and etiquette the most..."
But this kind of woman is the most arrogant, how could she have entered the harem of the late emperor?
"My father forced her to come in, and she was cut off from the path of taking the imperial examination." Xiao Zhengze talked about the grievances and hatreds of his parents' generation.
"They met when they were young and had feelings for each other, but everything changed when my father took the throne as a man."
His mother was born into a very conservative and prudent family, so she naturally strongly opposed the late emperor's ascension to the throne.
The two people who originally had feelings for each other parted ways unhappily, but that would have been fine, but my father still relied on his imperial power to force my mother to enter the harem.
"A scholar with a bright future could no longer pursue a career in government after entering the palace. His life's hard work would be wasted. One can imagine the pain his mother must have felt."
In this palace, his mother had flipped through books, looked up at the sky and sighed many times late at night, and every time at this moment, he knew how much his mother hated his father.
"But she still raised you well." Lou Xiao had never seen that woman, nor had she heard anyone mention her.
I think it's long gone, and now it's just A Cang's memory.
"She was originally a scholar... She was thinking about self-cultivation, family harmony, governing the country and bringing peace to the world... Xiaoxiao thinks, can she handle the conspiracies and intrigues in the palace?"
Xiao Zhengze smiled and said, "Besides, everyone in the palace knows that His Majesty doesn't like her."
A scholar who has always been upright and honest is locked up in the harem by a man. She cannot compete for favors and fawn on others like others.
They can't tell the difference between the traps that are always there and the plots that are everywhere.
That woman, after having a daughter, finally found redemption in life, and wholeheartedly gave her daughter everything she had learned in her life.
Her daughter is the fulcrum of her life and the comfort of this endless suffering.
And what about the son?
Just a burden.
The inferiority complex that Xiao Zhengze had never been willing to express out loud was finally no longer concealed in the final chapter of his life.
"In my mother's eyes, maybe I shouldn't have survived."
Xiao Zhengze laughed at himself and said, "She is willing to give everything for the emperor sister, but she doesn't care about my life or death. She let me be seriously ill and didn't even come to see me."
Even more...
Those unrejectable rewards, the malicious cakes and sweet soups,
She fed them all into his stomach.
"I should hate her, but I know very well that she is just a pitiful person."
Tears glistened in Xiao Zhengze's eyes. "I saw her die in this palace with my own eyes. She never wanted to see my father."
He thought, he didn't want that ending.